It’s hard to know you’re going through life, and losing people along the way. Nothing serious… most times, you just drift apart. There’s no screaming, no arguments… no closure. Because, after a moment, you realize that you do miss them.

And you can’t seem to shake the feeling that something’s wrong. Of course, I also miss the ability to eat a meal without obsessing about calories. I miss not having to take a handful of pills every day so that I can convince people that I’m doing okay.

I miss carefree.

I miss happy.

But, in all reality, who am I kidding? I can’t remember the last day that I didn’t feel the way I do now. It’s not so much depressed (and certainly not mania) as it is… numbness.

Listen: I’m in this new apartment.
I’m content. There’s something about paying your own rent, buying your own groceries, drinking your own wine, and watching your own television through your own cable and surfing your own internet on your own computer that just… well, it’s lonely as hell, but I feel really stable.

Soon, I’ll be out of Chicago. I’ve got six more months, and then I’m free.
I just keep trying to remind myself of that, over and over again.

And, I know… everyone hasn’t left me.
I know.

I’m not one to brag, but I do get my fair share of boys every now and again. Well… I did anyway. Recently, I have been noticing a sudden change in my approach to the opposite sex. The Audrey that we all knew and loved was boisterous, outgoing, and dog-gonnit she hooked up with anything with a penis (and a wallet). Now, I’m sad to say those days have come and gone. For it seems that I have become shy and boy-challenged.

It’s not that I do not try… well… I guess I’m not really throwing myself out there anymore, but I want to. It’s just that I seem to have forgotten how. This is mostly due to the gay bars that I have frequented as of late (courtesy of PJ). I think I am so used to not having to flirt with boys at said bars. There are hot boys everywhere in the Boy’s Town bars, but I have conditioned myself to not throw myself at them because I know they like peen just as much as I do.  That seems to have carried over to the straight bar scene. I’m trying to get over Goggles and E-factor and the whole gay bar scene is probably not the right place for me to get back into the scene, but I will say those gays love to party.

Another reason is that I think that I have upped my standards a little bit. Is it a problem that I will not even talk to a boy if he is shorter than 5′9″? Is it wrong to turn guys down if they do not wear a suit to work or just because they do not have a job? Trust me. That is for the better–I’ve got expensive habits. Is it bad to just walk away from some dude because every word that is coming out of his mouth is ridiculously boring and he is not good-looking enough to tolerate?

I just want someone cool who will treat me like a princess and make me laugh and all that nonsense. It wouldn’t hurt if he was into comic books and movies and the same tv shows and music as me. It would also be a plus if he had a fat little wallet, sweet job, and knew how to dress. And he has to be really sweet and nice and smart… and have straight teeth, and good hair. It would be best if he was hot… but I will settle for cute if he does what I tell him to do. I hate to say it, but I kind of want a guy like my most recent ex–but hotter and younger (I think that I’m going to stick to guys that are kind of around my age; say– 21-26) AND minus the lying, cheating, and douche baggery. Oh and he has to worship the ground I walk on and think I am just absolutely adorable when I am totally sober and completely wasted. He’s got to be able to keep up with my craziness and he would earn mega-points if he had a car.

Ugh… Why can’t I find a guy? I don’t think my standards are too high. Is it bad that I am looking for someone semi-cool? There has to be someone out there who fits this description.  I think I lost my mojo when I decided that I didn’t want to be the one-night stand girl anymore… and look where that has gotten me?

I’m done with Goggles. But I kind of want to hook up with his friend. I’m done cozying up to the ex. Even though he did confess that I am much more attractive than his new girlfriend (but that was a GIVEN!) and tried to get into my pants– whether or not he succeeded I will not disclose. I shouldn’t talk to Excess Baggage anymore, but it’s just a comfort zone I’m not ready to let go of. And John Cusack keeps calling to hang out. I don’t know how to tell him NO. It’s just easier to avoid it and say that I have other plans.

Ugh. I want a boyfriend, but it looks like I am going on a never ending quest to regain that je nais se qua that I once had that impressed the fellers. Oy vay!

Well well well… Looks like we have a new year a head of us, kiddos. I’m not going to bore you with last year’s sentiments because I don’t dwell on the past. However, I have come to quite the revelation.I need me some quality man candy–and by that I mean, I think it’s time that I nab me a boyfriend. Being single is fun and all, but I want to be lavished with presents and be taken out on dates. I want to do boyfriend and girlfriend things again. Plus, I’m super sick of paying for my schnizzle.Sure, Excess Baggage wants to get back together and all that, but I’m just not attracted to him. And I’m not saying all of this because I want to date Goggles. There’s a lot of grey area there and I don’t really like it. I want to be with someone that can hang–someone on my level. AND I’m not going to settle either. I want to be for real real– not for play play.So here is the criteria:

•  He has to be SUPER funny. I need him to be able to make me laugh and I’m anti-serious people. He totally has to be pop culture saavy and random and understand that I’m kind of an oddball that bases her life on 300, Mean Girls, & Zoolander.
• It would be nice to be with someone who can party hardy just so I don’t feel like I have an alcohol dependency. But he also has to be someone I can tolerate when he is drunk. He’s got to be a fun drunk, not an annoying one.
• I’m pretty vain so I would want him to be attractive–at least to me. I know, I know. And I need him to be a snazzy dresser because I have to be seen with his ass, but I don’t want him to be borderline gay at the same time. I like blonds… and I seem to attract them, but I do prefer dark haired fellows. 
• It wouldn’t hurt if he was well-established or even an up-and-comer of some sort. I have expensive tastes (I get it from my mama) so it wouldn’t hurt if he had the power to earn the paper to put in his pocket so that he can buy me the things that I like.
• Intelligence would also be a plus. I don’t want to be with a dummy dumb dumb. I would prefer someone apolitical and like myself.
• I would like to date someone my age… maybe 26 at the oldest, 21 being the youngest. I’m sick of dating the waaay older guys.
• Cocky mother fuckers are hot. I don’t want a whiney bitch.
• He has to prefer BATMAN over Superman and be into comics. He would get bonus points if he read Watchmen and Wanted.
• I kind of want someone I can take home to mom, but at the same time he has to be not boring and lots of fun. I don’t want to be embarassed to bring him around my family and friends or explain his situation to people. If my friends don’t like him, it’s done. 
• I need someone who can move at a decent pace and tells it like it is. I’m kind of over this wishy washy nonsense (Goggles).

I hate to say it kids, but “good” Audrey is done.

I am so sick of boys right now with their back-back-forth-and-forth-ness. It’s pretty ridiculous. Goggles especially–he’s totally not goodlooking enough to play this game. First, he’s all about me. Then he’s not about me. But, oh wait, he’s all about it bout it when his friend, who from this day forth shall be known as, Wolverine, or any other random guy is all over my nuts.

That’s how he was on Halloween. That is why he kissed me. That is why he texts me every five seconds when he knows that I am with Wolverine or if he is the vicinity.

Is he trying to prove something? He knows that I like him–nay, liked him, but I’m so over his psuedo-Jedi mind tricks. Why is it so difficult for him to show me that he likes me or blow me off if he doesn’t? I am not in love with him so I would not care. I have the bounce back rate of a 2-year-old. Just flash something shiny in my direction and I will be distracted. I am not going to cry about it. There are so many other guys that will wait, oh, less than THREE MONTHS to kiss me. In fact, there are guys who will try to make out after 8 seconds of knowing me!

Also, there are guys who won’t lie about hanging out with his brother just to go have a guys’ night. Yeah, that is what Goggles did. He invited me to watch Da Bears’ game the other day and then uninvited me because his brother was coming over. Then Mark texted me to tell me to come to watch the game at Goggle’s house unbeknownst to him that I was uninvited since his brother was there. What? Who does that?

We all know that I really really really liked Goggles. There is no denying that. I stopped smoking around him. I stopped going to straight bars. I stopped randomly making out with random people. I turned down sex many a time. I did all of this because I thought somehow this would prove to him how much I liked him when I really did not have to prove anything to him at all.

So I am done pretending to be this goody-two shoes for no apparent reason. He only likes me when he feels it is convenient for him. For the most part, that is when someone else is stepping on to “his” territory. And for the record, I am for no man to claim. Thank you very much.

I guess what I am trying to say is this: Audrey is back. None of this pretending to be nice nonsense. No more of this “I like Goggles soo much” bull crap! I am going back to my evil ways and you can’t stop me. I’m going to stop being boring now and go on all the random misadventures that make my life as carefree as possible. Holla! Jammin’ on the one.

Disclaimer: This is a drunken rant. If it doesn’t make sense, it is because I am slightly enibriated.

So, here’s the deal, guys. Saturday night, on my train home from the parents’ house, your own darling Lily got tanked beyond belief. Whoever thought it was a good idea to keep serving her those tiny little vodka bottles should be taken out back and shot.

But, yeah. So, that happened. And I, in true form, got a little melancholy. It was a long train ride alone, I was drunk, I missed Christian, blah blah blah. So, I typed… and typed and typed… and came up with what you saw up here two days ago.

Well, I went back. I realized that even for me, and even for my crazy inability to not divulge private matters to the world, that this was a bit too private. I took it down. For those of you who did have to be subjected to it, I apologize. Seriously. I get out of hand, and that’s what comes out.

I sobered up, and I’m okay now. Audrey is putting me on a sober December… we can smoke, but no getting drunk or drug usage, which is the best idea I’ve heard in ages.

Thanksgiving was fun… we had family in from a couple different places (including some quasi-family I had never met before), and your resident vegetarian spent her time mowing on cranberry sauce, potatoes, and pumpkin pie. Friday I spent with Carrie and did the best thing ever.

I went into my old work at home, the place I return to every break and summer time to get treated like a piece of meat while serving the same to assholes who tip poorly, and let them know I would not be returning.

Ever.

And I did this with a Ketel One Diet with lime. It was brilliant. 

Last night was super fantastical.

I spent the first half of my day working. Apparently, I have a little fan club at work and they think that I’m God’s gift. Normally, that would be an ego boost, however, they’re the creepiest dudes ever. Then I couldn’t find an outfit to wear to Enclave. So I was super stressed out. Le sigh.

I finally found something to wear and Monster-ed up so that I was all chipper and perky when I saw my nearest and dearest at the bar. I was so happy to see everyone one last time before we all parted ways for like a month. It was my friend’s birthday and everyone was there. It was pretty fab. Goggles and Mark were supposed to meet us up there, but their friends didn’t want to pay the ridiculous Enclave cover, but told me to meet up with them later.

So I did the only thing I could do at that point with my premium wristband—drink, smoke, and make out. I was jamming out to Alyssa’s and my rendition of Day Man and falling out of VIP booths; drinking excessively and smoking like chimney. I think I wandered off at some point and made out with some random dude just because he said that I looked like I was Italian (and I do not look Italian… like AT ALL). Apparently, he was really short, but I don’t know. I was pretty hammered.

By the time my premium wristband expired (which was about 6-7 drinks in and at about midnight), Karly and I booked it to meet Goggles and Mark up in Wicker Park. We somehow made it to the blue line (after a few drunk dials) and stumbled into Debonair (where the boys were) in the silly little Urban Outfitters-esque neighborhood. As soon as we walked in, we saw Mark and the friend that tries to make out with me at their booth with Goggles and a few other people.

I flirted shamelessly with their friend that tries to make out with me because a) Goggles was sitting in the middle of the booth; b) Karly was flirting with Mark and their buddy, Tony; and c) Goggles didn’t even give me a hug when he saw me. I was a little drunk and a little pissed.

After about ten minutes or so, Goggles got up and gave me a big hug. He took my hand and led the group downstairs to the crazy little basement of Debonair. It’s all black with a single red light running through the wall. It’s kind of a trip. It is also the first place that Goggles and I really hung out without Mark and where I first realized that I kind of dug him.

Goggles and I were deep in conversation and by deep in conversation, I mean, we were talking about something stupid and making fun of each other and canoodling and what not. We’re pretty adorable. We were kind of in out own little world, but that bubble burst when we noticed Karly and Mark and everyone else we were with were chanting: Make out! Make out! Ugh. How embarrassing?!

It was super awkward. Goggles and I just kind of looked at each other, and he asked me why everyone wanted us to kiss. Of course, I tried to act aloof, but I couldn’t help that I turned beat red. And then it happened–in the midst of my nervous bumbling… 

OH.

MY.

GOD.

GOGGLES KISSED ME! It was sufficiently awkward and kind of silly, but it was so cute. Then he told me that he was going to kiss me last Friday at Barleycorn, but I somehow ran away. For the record I thought that he was falling me, but when I turned around he was across the street. But I was so stoked that he was going to kiss me on Friday! I’ve been smiling ever since.

I know. I am being pretty gay, right now, but come on! I’ve been waiting for him to make a move for three months! Three flipping months! That is insanity. I’ve never waited for anything for more than a week, but I waited three months for this dude to make a move. Ugh. It was so worth it. I guess I wasn’t the only one relieved when he made the move because our entire gang of friends took shots to celebrate.

Now, I’m not saying it was the best kiss in the world and that there was magic and fireworks, but it totally confirmed my feelings for him. He may not be the cutest boy in the world, but I think that he is adorable. And he isn’t the best dancer, but it’s still kind of sweet that he tries. He’s kind of a nerd, but I’m kind of a geek. He is so funny and smart. We have so much in common. Ugh. I dig him!

We kissed a few more times (insert smiles here) and then we parted ways, but when we turned around we found our two friends, Karly and Tony, going at it! AWKWARD! And then five seconds later, Karly confesses that she wanted to make out with MARK! Double awkward. One last kiss from Goggles and Karly and I got on the blue line.

I don’t know what we were doing or who we talking to, but we totally went an hour out of the way. It was the longest train ride home. Ha. But, again, so worth it. I was in my happy place. When Karly and I got to my apartment it was like 4:30 a.m. We had a mini-Thanksgiving feast and watched a little Spice World and crashed.

What a wonderful night? I can’t wait until I see Goggles again. Golly, I wonder if he likes me? I know. I’ll shut up. Mark said that he wouldn’t have kissed me if he didn’t, but I guess that logic is foreign to me since I make out with about everyone. Ha!  So happy.

Happy Thanksgiving, kiddos.

It’s been a crazy little week and Lily and I have been slacking with the posts, I know. Last week, was super stressful with me killing the economy and all.

Last Friday, I needed to de-stress. I had one hell of a shopping spree with Ana. Later that night, I managed to dance the night away with Goggles (who is a really really bad dancer, but in the most adorable kind of way). Lily managed to do the one thing I told her not to do, which was drunkenly tell Goggles how I feel about him (Thanks, Lil). Then at some point, she managed to drunkenly flash us at Barleycorn. Ha, I know. What a skank, right? I thought that he would never speak to me again (since he told me that he never talks to girls who like him if he does not like them back), but it worked in my favor. I figure that he has to dig me a little bit since he is still talking to me and hanging out with me. So, you’re lucky this time, Lillian, but no more drunken professions of love when a) you’re inebriated and b) not involved in either party.

Saturday, I met up with the loves of my life, Karly and Alyssa, and we partied it up with Mark and company since he was throwing a party. Things got a little nutty (there was Jungle Juice and Jungle Juice and I are not the best of friends). I attacked a boxing machine and spent the night hanging out with Goggles friend. No, we didn’t do anything (even though that was my plan). I really like Goggles and I just didn’t think it was in my best interest if I want to pursue something special with him (I know. I’m gay).

And this whole passed week, I’ve just been coasting through. Saw Beowulf on Monday–I realized that I hated the epic and that there was no need for me to see the movie. I learned a few things though–Angelina Jolie can fuck whoever she wants and it will haunt a man forever; and if your arm rips off of your body, you’re screwed because you automatically die.

The rest of the week I was partying hard with old friends and closing down bars. I didn’t realize how much I missed everyone until I saw them all again. And although, the suburb bars do not compare to the one’s we have in the city, the patrons know how to throw down and have a shit ton of fun. I saw everyone from Preschool to Excess Baggage to kids that I went to grade school with and of course, Karly and Alyssa, so it was automatically an awesome time.

I will be reuniting with everyone again tomorrow for a last hoorah at a friend’s birthday bash/lingerie party tomorrow at Enclave (Googles will be there too I think… I was so happy that he conveniently made it out to the suburbs last night and that Mark convinced him to go to the same bar that the girls and I were at). I’m quite excited. I might dress a little skankier than usual for the occasion. This might even call for an emergency shopping trip.

But I guess , I just want to take this time and state everything that I’m thankful for, since it’s Thanksgiving and all. I figure the occassion calls for it.

• My Family. I’m so glad that my family is pretty attractive and that I didn’t end up ugly. I’m pretty glad that I’m cute because God knows that I’m not the brightest crayon in the box and that my looks have gotten me a lot of things. I’m kind of glad that they don’t expect me to be a rocket scientist and that they will always think of me as “the cute one”. No pressure there.
  
• The Crazy Bitches I Call Friends. I am partial to you guys because there’s only a select bunch that I truly truly enjoy. You’re always a guaranteed good time and I could talk to them about anything.
• My Cell Phone. It is truly an extension of my body. I don’t know what I would do with out it.
• M.A.C. Cosmetics. Because they make me look flawless (even though it really doesn’t take much).
• Andy Samberg. There should be no reason for why I’m thankful for him except that he is the most beautiful, funniest man in the universe.
• That Homeboy Broke Up With Me When He Did. Ugh. I would have been engaged by now, dudes! How crazy would that have been? No crazy stories. No random make out sessions. No slutting around town. No crazy list of bad ideas. No Goggles (he wouldn’t have even been a blip on my radar since when I am in a fully committed relationship–which I was–I have boy blinders on). My life would pretty much suck major!
• Skinny Jeans. They just make my legs look long and my ass look fierce!
• Justin Timberlake. Without his music, I would not be such a merry drunk.
  
• The Gays. They are just so fab. Without them we would not know what is cool and what is hot. We need them in our society. They make society work and the world a better place in general.
• The Almighty Credit Card. The emergency credit card has done wonders for my wardrobe. Without I wouldn’t be looking as fresh and clean as I usually do. Also, it has closed a few bar tabs in its day. I can’t help it if I live beyond my means. I’m cool like that. Hollar!
  

I think that is it. I was looking forward to not waking up early, but I’m thinking that I might have to just for the sake of having something to wear tomorrow night. Hope you guys are all fattened up. I have a feeling you all are going to purge tomorrow. Kidding! Not really, but for the sake of the kids, I never said I was a role model.

I woke up early this morning because my father texted me. That’s right, my father. My mother does it every once in a while too. I’m not too comfortable with this little bit of information. I mean, I thought parents didn’t know how to use technology. Now granted, it is just a testament to the fact that I’m a good teacher. I was the one who sat them down (separately, of course. They hate each other with a fiery passion.) and taught them how to use their phones, computers, dvd players, sound systems, etc.

And, let me tell you, I’m not even that good at it. So, when was it that our generation’s differentiation became a bridged gap? I was sitting in class, analyzing a poem (it’s what you do as an English major. I can’t imagine why anyone would choose a real degree ever.), and we started talking about a specific poem that was touching on how the previous generation always envies the newest generation. But, as was brought up in class, there is nothing to envy of our generation. We living in a technologically savvy world, but we are disconnected from everyone around us. We have all the comforts we could ask for (at least in this country) but we are riddled with mental disease and disorder in extreme quantities. How is it that the “Age of Information” has become the “Age of Depression”?

Now, of course, there are certain things that we have that our parents didn’t. Like, internet. And cell phones, digital cable, dvds, cds… anybody else notice a trend? They got free love, LSD, birth control, and a war they wanted to fight for. We got a bunch of gadgets that force us even further away from human contact. I don’t really see the logic there. I think, somewhere along the lines, we got fucked. And saying that, I know that the generation after me will probably be even more fucked than I am. They won’t know what it’s like to go play outside with their friends, because they’ll be too busy playing with their game systems and high-tech toys. I at least got the luxury of being able to run around as a child, using my imagination, stopping to smell the Lily of the Valley (no pun intended… I was just a very silly child. Lily of the Valley are my favorite flowers though. Heads up.) and having a grand ol’ time without a care in the world. With every kid on Ritalin, Adderall, Prozac, and more, it’s no wonder that kids just sit in their rooms all day, playing Halo on a PS3. They don’t know what else to do, since they’re pretty much high all the time.

Of course, I can’t talk. I’m on drugs too. But thats my choice. And I feel bad for these kids who wander around like zombies because their overbearing parents are unable to handle them without doping them up.

So, maybe that’s the problem with this and the next generation: bad parenting. And, I have a way to stop the cycle…

Sterilize. Everyone.

Hey, it could work.

I realize that the economy is a necessary entity in the world that we live in—with all the importing and exporting and what not that we do; and the whole supply and demand nonsense. Without it, I would not be able to go shopping and forgo my career as a marketer…yadda, yadda, yadda. I get it. The economy is necessary.

However, I would like to argue why I do not think it should be a necessary part of my curriculum. The reasons being: it is stupid and I hate it. I literally want to set it ablaze (and yes, I have noticed that lately I do have pyromaniac tendencies) and kill it. I think the economy is horse shit simply because it makes my life more difficult.

Why do I need to know how to minimize marginal cost without reducing the output of production? You know what my answer would be on an exam? Hire more friggin’ immigrants or outsource your labor to a third world country. But unfortunately, that is not one of t he choices that I am given on a multiple choice test. Also, there is no mathematical proof… well, legitimate mathematical proof that people don’t frown upon (stupid hippies). I mean, I guess I can bs an algorithm (immigrants/third world country labor + higher rate of production + jacked up output prices = lower marginal cost + higher overall revenues), but I have a feeling I would a) displease my professor and b) be deemed as a “bad person”. To be honest, I have accepted the latter, however, I must avoid the former if I want to pass this stupid, stupid class.

Everything that is discussed in regards to the stupid economy is retarded. Personally, I do not think it pertains to anything relevant that I want to do. I just want to make pretty advertisements and launch bitchin’ campaigns; maybe cause a few eating disorders, control what is deemed as “cool”, and push people to believe that who they are is what they own. That isn’t so much to ask for. I know. I am simple like that.

I do not care how much it costs a company to produces what they want to me to market. I do not care what the consumer has to pay. My sole purpose in life is to make whatever product it is super duper sexy. I am just there to create a demand (at a pretty damn good price).

But yeah, I purpose that we stage a coup. Yes, you and I! Let’s kill the economy. Okay, maybe not the real economy because the world would totally go in the shitter, but on the smaller scale, economy related classes. I believe they call them economics. For I deem them unnecessary and irrelevant to my life. Not only are they dry and boring and full of numbers and algebra (yuck!), they put me in the most awful mood.

So blast you, economy. I demand that you supply your carcass for a good old fashion ass kicking. And, oh yes, I will see you in hell.

Like Lily was saying, SOVA did come out this passed weekend and it was totally fun. We just drank and drank and played Wii and then drank some more. I actually busted my arm playing Wii on Thursday. I can’t help it if I am hardcore like that. And for the record Wii Tennis is waaaay better than Wii bowling. But I totally busted it playing Wii Boxing, which by the way, may be the most dangerous game known to man. I kicked SOVA’s ass though. Although he did give me a few bruises since we were actually hitting each other both virtually and physically. For some reason, he’s not above hitting girls. Ha! It was pretty ridiculous.

Oh, did I mention that we drank a lot? Little Audrey over here did not eat that whole night. Nay, I had ice cream for dinner and then drank a lot. We drank as soon as we all met up pretty much. I learned something fascinating that night. If you don’t eat real food, you are totally going to get sick and vom all night. You know how I know? That is exactly what happened. I was throwing up all night. Lily and SOVA just thought that I had a teeny little bladder. So not the case… I was totally vomming my brains out. It was pretty sweet.

So when I woke up at 6 in the morning to do go to my parent’s, I not only woke up extremely hung over (and still yakking) but I could barley lift my right arm. That morning cigarette was the heaviest f-in thing in the whole world. Now my arms a little better, but it’s still kind of soar. I was so ill, I wanted Burger King, but don’t worry, guys, Lily informed me that BK Lounge is disgusting and we took a cab home.

Flash forward to Saturday. I get back to the city after celebrating my mom’s birthday in the suburbs and low and behold it is E-day! SOVA called me up and we met up for a few rounds at like one. We even watched a little college football. After a few, for some reason, we started hitting each other. Again, SOVA likes to hit girls and I guess it didn’t matter that we were in public.

At one point an older gentlemen and his brother-in-law motion for me to come over to their table and I do because Audrey loves the world when she is plastered. They just assumed SOVA and I were TOGETHER together (it was the hitting that probably did them in). They pretty much told me not to commit to anything with SOVA until I see some jewelry. Actually they told me to go up to him and say, and I quote: “No ice, no dice.” I thought it was funny so I did. And SOVA was pretty confused and came over to talk to the old guys. We all just started to shoot the shit.

That time came and went. SOVA and I had another round, courtesy of our new older griends, and just started wailing on each other again. Apparently, that does not fly in a bar and we got kicked out. It was pretty hilarious. Time flew and before we knew it, it was time for us to go our separate ways. I was supposed to go meet up with Ana and company while SOVA was supposed to attend the Do Make Say Think concert.

We were downtown-ish, but for some reason we thought it would be a phenomenal idea to walk to Lincoln Park (or that general direction). I was meeting Ana up at Grand Central and SOVA was going to the Metro in Wrigleyville. We start walking down Division, we’re both drunk, mind you. Every five seconds SOVA would ask me where we were and every five seconds I would reply Lincoln Park. On our quest to our destinations, SOVA thought it would be proper if he peed on a tree facing the general public. I thought it was funny, but joggers did not.

I reached Grand Central and SOVA and I said our good-byes. He had to catch an early flight in the morning, but fun times were still had with Ana.

At Grand Central, I continued to drink until I could not feel feelings any longer. That was my mission and boy, was that mission accomplished. I was so drunk that I thought it was an awesome idea to take a nap on the bar floor (well more like the dance floor). My friends thought it was funny, but not so much the bouncer. As soon as I woke up, I made a b-line for the bouncer and proceeded to vom. I am starting to think that my drinking is beginning to catch up with me.

I needed to refuel, so we got some Mickey D’s. Then I took a cab home, but before I could walk upstairs I had to vom in the flowers in front of my building. Again, I thought it would be funny. I threw up once more when I got upstairs, put on some It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia, and passed the f out.

It was a spectacular Saturday.

Then the week began and I pretty much hate life. Everything is not turning up Milhouse like it should be. In case you were wondering, my date with Goggles was canceled with a legit reason, but still (on the plus side it was just supposed to be the two of us). And right now, that is the least of my worries. That is actually the only worry that I am willing to share. Well, I have to jump back in to the chaos that is my life.

I had a wonderful weekend thanks to SOVA (looking forward to your next visit, dear), but this weekend could not come any faster. I need a break, kids. Ugh… did I mention that the holiday season is beginning? Gag me!